popping my blog cherry

it truly is moments like these that i wish i had my old laptop back.
lying in bed, reading a book for uni, about blogs.
i had an inane urge to blog. even though i had never blogged before. largely because i felt that i didnt really have much to say about anything.

So i put my book down, and contemplated getting up and turning on my computer. and it was at this point that i had a stare off with my old laptop. which was sitting on the corner of my desk, as it has been for the last 6 months, staring at me screaming at me "LOVE ME! USE ME! STICK A USB IN ME!". like the desperate sex deprived teenage laptop does (i imagine if my laptop were to come to life [like pinocchio] it would be a desperate sex deprived teenager)

But i decided the time it takes to load a page on myspace was just too painful to sit through.

To Blog or not to blog? that is the question, or rather, where to blog?
First instinct would obviously be myspace as i am (as they all are) just an emo stuck in a normal persons body.

Then i realised my friends would read it. When i said i felt like i never had anything real to say, it wasnt true. Just in a group of loud opinionated people its easy for your voice to get lost. It is also easy to get into the habit of filling any silences that come along with inane chatter so much that you talk and talk. And by the time you have something worthwhile to say. nobody is listening.

Plus my friends opinions scare me.
I have to see these people every day. i like there to remain some mystery between us.
But i still felt i had to get in on the blog action. The book i was reading described the iraqi war as the Internet War because of the heavy reliance on blogs as a source of news, debates and opinions that were never heard before; similar to how television was used in the Vietnam War.
i wanted in. not that i am bursting with rants and tyraids about the situation in the middle east. to be honest i am not all that well educated on the subject, so i feel it would be better to stay out of something i dont truly understand. But the description of how blogs have become so intergrated into society made me want to be apart of it. to give myself a voice in blogoland. (haha sounds like legoland)