i am not anxious to die, just anxious to matter

watched pearl harbour for the first time since i was around 12. I forgot how terrible it is.

thats my unrelated note

this is the real part.

i am....
erin, a maniac, self concious, outgoing, stupid, cute, anxious, self indulgent and a all round nutjob.

i have....
a wonderful set of friends, a loving and close family and a wonderfully smart, funny, gorgeous, can't get enough of him boyfriend. and despite all this, i have constant worrys

i will....
kick you, punch you, try to drown you, hug you, kiss you, lie on top of you, cuddle you, swear at you, scream and cry at you, say irrational things to you and rant for days to you if i care for you in anyway.

i won't....
ever shutup. even when the world would be a better place if i did. i am physically, mentally and emotionally incapable of it.

i hate....
people that say they have no regrets. i regret alot. saying i was young, drunk, and stupid does nothing to make them go away. saying i learnt my lesson, have grown up or moved on doesn't either.

i love....
getting excited, getting into that little nook that i fit so well, twirling my hair when its just been washed, hugging/thrusting my best friends, making new friends and my eyes.

i like.....
zooper doopers.

i ain't.....
got terrible grammar. pretend this one doesn't exist.

i always....
analyse my performance after i first meet someone/serve someone/talk on the phone/or drive past someone.

i think....
random trains of thought. if i ever burst out with random words and sentences which do not relate to the original topic, just know that it made sense to me.

i could....
be a better friend. but most of the time i am being selfish and rude because i am jealous.

i would....
give more money to charity if i didn't already work for one.

i wonder....
who thought of lime milkshakes.

i read....
because it makes me happy. not because i am a nerd.

i play.....
netball, trumpet, majhong titans, freecell, facebook stalking, with your mind, my hair, with manfriend, monopoly and mario kart.

i can....
pick my nose with my tongue, if i wanted to that is...... i don't.

i can't......
be in car, train or plane (as a passenger) for more than 20 mins without falling asleep.

i want....
to always wake up laughing, and i am coming close.

i can guarantee.....
that if you spend the night in a bed with me you will hear me laugh, snort, mumble, talk and may be yell. also expect to be kicked, twitched on, pushed out of the bed and have all blankets stolen.

i hope....
he loves me as much as i love him.

2010: the year of books

i came to the realisation today (after I bought another book) that I have a mounting stack of books on my to read list.


New years resolution: read them all.