in my heart

i hate feeling the sadness in your heart for someone else, you can't take it away until they do.
and then you never know if their's is trly gone.
:(

convergence schmulture

i'm sad.
because one of my classes makes you blog. for an assignment. in full academic styling. doesn't that uh...defeat the purpose of a blog, why not just get us to write a 2000 word essay.
i hate my lecturer. with a passion.

whats really irritating is i really like the subject content.


too bad he's a douchebag.





i do realise that i am bitching about blogging, on a blog.
it's not that i dont want to blog, but i would much rather rant then talk about Henry Jenkins and convergence culture




converge this.

we all gotta grow up sometime

im 19 and feel like im becoming responsible and mature.




i hate it.

3 years ago all i wanted was the be considered mature enough for this and responsible enough for that. now i just want to be stupid.
but no matter what, when i go out with my friends i find myself staring at them in disbelief at what they do.
but i used to do that. and im pretty sure i would be doing it, but im not
and all because of a damn broken collarbone.
which i got from falling off a bus, whilst drunk.
its the ultimate irony.
god is sitting on his cloud(yes i still think of god as one who sits on a cloud) laughing.
well har fucking har.

you know what this comes back to?
i have way too much time on my hands to think about these things.
having just came back from 2 months of european adentures that left no time to think i find myself, unemployed and unable to look for a job.
this both sucks and blows.